I get the message.

My horoscope says for my to experience new things today. It continued to say that I should get some dang exercise. My stress pouch is saying the same thing. My attitude is getting on my nerves, she needs to go out for a walk as well, and my blood sugar numbers are cosigning with everyone. Its diet and exercise time! Who wants to go walking with me?

its real

its real down here
where I am
and I don’t have the luxury
to care about anything but surviving
where I am I can taste the concrete
its not just asphalt under my feet
and I can smell the fear
its real palpable down here
so excuse me if I seem not to care
about what happens to you up there
because up there is where I escape to
but down here is where I live
and down here its hella real
down here we eat prisoners
just to stay alive
down here we do what we gotta
just to survive

New Painting Experience

I have a new painting taking form in my head. I watched the movie Frida over the weekend and was so inspired. I never knew much about her, other than that she was Mexican and had a fierce unibrow. After watching Salma Hayek make Frida come to life, I found a new appreciation for the artist. Her paintings were so raw and real, she didn’t hide behind niceties or art school propaganda, she painted it as she saw it. I love that kind free spirit!!! Ms. Kahlo suffered from an injury that left her bedridden and then in apin most of her life. She painted her pain and loneliness through a series of self portraits.

So I thought it would be neat to do a self portrait (I’ve done a few before because I have no one to model for me), and portray what I’m feeling. This led me to do some sketches and to really think about what I wanted to convey. I found out something that kinda…opened my eyes about what I value most.

I’ll keep you posted, with pictures, on how this work turns out.

Well come to this painter’s chronicled painting experience!!!

The Love embrace of the Universe, the Earth (Mexico), Me, and Señor Xolotl by Frida Kahlo 1949

A Mexican ying yang -- living between night and day, water and desert, enveloped by the Indian mother and universe.

Diego Rivera and Frida Kahlo

untitled

hmmm
no words
to express the day that has begun
but has yet to start
heels dug deep
no no I don’t wanna go
everyday on the hamster wheel
blowing bubbles with my spit
salivating over a dream
deferred
updated
upgraded
and inflated
yeah I could think of a few places I’d rather be
guess I found the words after all

The stalker in me loves tracking the stalker in you.

Things the Eys will never use. Google has finally come up with its app for tracking other app users with a gps. How fun! So you can download this app and stalk your friends and family all day and all night. When I read this article I had to chuckle, the author did a good job of stating the pros and cons of this new app. But let me tell you this, I will NOT be using it :) Anyone who spends 5 minutes talking to me will pick up quickly that I am not the most open person when it comes to my personal business. I actually kind of pride myself with me covert opps, stealth mode existence, I love flying under the radar and constantly filling up the air of my mystery with my paranoid like secrecy. There is a reason why all of my good friends, all of my longest known acquaintances live MILES away from me. Like in another state including other time zones. Heck, most of my peeps have a wandering nomad complex just like me, I’ve moved my residence almost every year since 2001 and am looking to live in my 4th state coming this summer. So what the heck is she running from, you may be wondering, well if I told ya, I’d have to kill ya. And why do I continue to live the life of a paranoid Michael Phelps head (even tho I don’t partake)? You know sometimes its just dammit fun, and sometimes you have to do what you gotta to remain drama free. Coming from a sista who has been stalked and has stalked, I just feel safer at night knowing my whereabouts are a mystery even to me sometimes. So this lil app and the other apps just like it will never be on the Eys’s xmas list. no no no. For the same reason I’m anti twitter (nonya bidness what I’m doing or thinking right now, it might involve a plot to poke you in the eye for being so nosy) and social networking sites annoy the crap outta me. So many ways for people to get in touch with me, so many ways for people to connect, so many ways for people to get on my nerves. Trust if I need to find someone, its not the hard.

For example/funny story: I had a “friend” who’s car I passed everyday going to and coming home from work. One day I saw her in her car pulling out of her parking space and headed home (well getting on the highway). I thought it was kinda funny that I was in the car behind her and called her on her cell phone to play a joke. Well no evil deed goes unthwarted. The “friend” didn’t answer her phone. Then she picked it up (remember I’m right behind her and can see her) and texted me a message that read: I’m working late tonight, in a meeting, I’ll hit you up when I get out. Didn’t need a google app, a gps, twitter, facebook, or myspace to catch her in that lie….just good ole fashion coincidence.

My point is that sometimes folks use these apps to catch people in lies, to make sure their mates are where they say they are, and to keep track of their world. I say you don’t need an app, people will tell on themselves all by themselves, and if you keep your eyes open, you may get all the info you need.

No stalker apps for me, thank you very much.

GOP getting diverse

Read a news headline today that said “Joe the Plumber advises GOP”. Not wanting to jump to any uneducated conclusions, I clicked on the title and read the one page article. Yes it is true, the title says it all, Joe is sitting down with GOP geniuses and is giving them advice. OH where to begin. Joe the plumber (with no license) reminds me of the folks we see on the evening news who are always at the scene of some crime jumping in front of the camera to give their 2 cents. You know the people we cringe at as soon as we see the camera pan the scene. The loudest folks in the bunch with the least amount of pertinent information, but get the most air time. Yeah Joe is white version of that to me. Now I realize that someone stuck a microphone in his hand and shoved a camera in his face and asked him a question. I understand that this by no means was a well thought out plan by him to become famous. Yes I do blame the media for encouraging bafoonery on all levels. But this right here, the GOP using this guy, who has at no time during his 15 months of fame ever shown me any political savvy, is some stupid shit, plain and simple. Really GOP? Is this all you could find? Trying to represent the common man, huh? To me Joe represents a certain percentage of America, as does the crime scene locals who vie for camera time on the evening new. Between Joe the plumber(the common man), Sarah Palin(a woman) and Michael Steele(a black man, and I’m not saying Mr. Steele is incompetent), I think the GOP think they are covering all their bases. They are convinced that the non-diversity card will never be pulled on them again. I say GOP you need to spend less energy in pretending to give a f**k about us and more energy into actually giving a f**k about us.

And let me just add this disclaimer as well, I don’t care for any of the political parties in this country, I don’t discriminate against any of the parties, I equally dislike them all. Thank you.